Its been a while since I thought of writing about my feelings … infact I believe that its been a little more than a while.. but ofcourse that doesnt mean that I havent been hurt all along the time I decided to stay quiet..
Coming back to today’s objective of writing.. I still have a BIG question mark .. when I try to think … why does life has to rip you off all the time for the faults that you dont actually have..? Why do we have to take the shit that we dont even create… I agree to the fact that life is an unfair battlefield in which we have to fight as individuals… and in this unfair battlefield its up to us as individuals whether we want to take the ethical or the unethical route to win the small battles that we fight everyday … but then … what is in it for the people who want to take the ethical route?? because eventually people preferring the unethical ways of winning the battle seem to get all the recognition..!!! but … still i believe that the final decider of who wins and who doesnt would depend upon who wins the FINAL WAR!! Some of you might think that war is a harsh word to replace life… but think of it logically… arent we really are in a battlefield? we make strategies for our life… we work around to achieve objectives… and we feel pride in achieving success… !! What is success to you? the word itself can have various meanings depending in which context we take it.. to some people success might mean to achieve something that they always wanted to … but to a majority of the people … success is to be better then their peers… these people take success … as a preferred choice to be better then other indivuals they compete against in this battlefield… they can even go in unethical ways to do anything … literally anything to be the better ones and preferred ones… cause the hunger and thirst of becoming better makes them .. want more… and makes them fight with anyine they could… and even though they call it a war or not… I’ll call it a war … its a cold war… where people love to back stab you.. and smile infront of your damn faces… this is the true picture of the world my friend.. this is how it goes…
Inspite of all this.. I won’t change and go on unethical ways to win the battle… cause to me… small battles are temporary … i dont care whoever wins these battles… because I want to win the WAR!!.. and to all my friends who are on the ethical side of it… yes its tempting to go on the unethical side of things … but trust me … thats only short term .. so stick to your own views… cause thats what is going to win you the War!!
I know it hurts … it hurts to even think about trusting people cause you have a habit of trusting them … but when the same people who you trusted … broke your trust .. and betrayed you .. thats when things go blue .. not because you really cared for the ones who broke your trust … but because you think why the hell did i trust them? 
… but thats part of life… and its not your fault … cause you trusted them … its them who would realize it sometime later when their trust would be broken similarly … they can win the battles again … we need to heal ourselves and go on … until we reach our final destination .. .. cause thats what we want…
Signing out with the hope of staying alive … and trying to start loving my existence again …
Regards,
SW
