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EPL: Arsenal vs Chelsea (10th May 2009) – Emirates Stadium (Review & Opinion)

Disappointment again for all the Arsenal fans after falling prey to Chelsea and losing the Super Sunday clash 4-1. A lot was not expected today from Arsenal, but still the fans were expecting a better result for Arsenal. Unfortunately, despite Arsenal’s attacking mentality and free flowing football, Arsene Wenger’s tactic’s went wrong yet again today. Although I would agree to the fact that in terms of quick passing and moves, Arsenal was playing very well but the problem was revealed when Chelsea gained the possession and came attacking towards the Arsenal goal.

Arsene Wenger tells everyone that this team has great potential, but I am sorry to say that players like Alex Song and Denilson, might have potential, but that potential is not upto Arsenal’s standards. There were two main areas that I could identify left a loop hole for Chelsea to exploit. The first problem lies at the position of the holding mid-fielder, and by now we all know that Alex Song or Denilson is NOT the solution to that. Why can’t Arsene see it himself? Or is he just too stubborn to understand and accept what everyone is seeing? Flamini gave us that edge, and we never retained him. We need a strong player with the right mentality and with the right confidence who can play for Arsenal, we need a proper solution! 

The second position is the Arsenal defense, and we need to fix it. I can’t get one thing… correct me if I am wrong. We sold Sol Campbell when he was about 30 and didn’t give him a contract extension to retain him. Similarly, we let go of Lauren, Vieira and even Pires and never thought of giving them longer contract extensions because of the Arsenal policy of not giving more than a year contracts to players who are aged 30 or more. Do you think we should have got Sylvestre or Gallas who were nearing 30, and that too, both from our RIVAL teams? Why don’t we get this policy shit straight then? Why did we need to lose our loyal players to get players almost the same age from our rival teams…? Well.. Forget it! I just don’t know what else to say…

The point is .. that after the 3-1 defeat against Manchester United all the fans were expecting a better result today from Arsenal and Arsene’s tactics so that the fans and the club could regain atleast some honour back. It is such a pity … that the result was even worse.. 4-1… and that too at the Emirates Stadium!!

One more thing that I cannot understand is that, why does Wenger always use the 4-5-1 formation when that never works for us? It was the same against Manchester United.. and the same against Chelsea today! On top of that, previously when Wenger was asked if he was looking at getting some new signings in the summer after the Champions League knock out… and Mr. Arsene Wenger replied in his own typical way that  when Diaby and Bendtner is already in the squad, bringing someone else would be unfair to them… 

I am speechless now… I am just speechless because I am pissed to the core!!

Revenge (Deviantart)

An image by markomao on deviantart.com

I Dream of Revenge…

Interesting quote that I found. It relates to my last post …

War or the Battle?

Its been a while since I thought of writing about my feelings … infact I believe that its been a little more than a while.. but ofcourse that doesnt mean that I havent been hurt all along the time I decided to stay quiet..

Coming back to today’s objective of writing.. I still have a BIG question mark .. when I try to think … why does life has to rip you off all the time for the faults that you dont actually have..? Why do we have to take the shit that we dont even create… I agree to the fact that life is an unfair battlefield in which we have to fight as individuals… and in this unfair battlefield its up to us as individuals whether we want to take the ethical or the unethical route to win the small battles that we fight everyday … but then … what is in it for the people who want to take the ethical route?? because eventually people preferring the unethical ways of winning the battle seem to get all the recognition..!!! but … still i believe that the final decider of who wins and who doesnt would depend upon who wins the FINAL WAR!! Some of you might think that war is a harsh word to replace life… but think of it logically… arent we really are in a battlefield? we make strategies for our life… we work around to achieve objectives… and we feel pride in achieving success… !! What is success to you? the word itself can have various meanings depending in which context we take it.. to some people success might mean to achieve something that they always wanted to … but to a majority of the people … success is to be better then their peers… these people take success … as a preferred choice to be better then other indivuals they compete against in this battlefield… they can even go in unethical ways to do anything … literally anything to be the better ones and preferred ones… cause the hunger and thirst of becoming better makes them .. want more… and makes them fight with anyine they could… and even though they call it a war or not… I’ll call it a war … its a cold war… where people love to back stab you.. and smile infront of your damn faces… this is the true picture of the world my friend.. this is how it goes…

Inspite of all this.. I won’t change and go on unethical ways to win the battle… cause to me… small battles are temporary … i dont care whoever wins these battles… because I want to win the WAR!!.. and to all my friends who are on the ethical side of it… yes its tempting to go on the unethical side of things … but trust me … thats only short term .. so stick to your own views… cause thats what is going to win you the War!!

I know it hurts … it hurts to even think about trusting people cause you have a habit of trusting them … but when the same people who you trusted … broke your trust .. and betrayed you .. thats when things go blue .. not because you really cared for the ones who broke your trust … but because you think why the hell did i trust them? :) … but thats part of life… and its not your fault … cause you trusted them … its them who would realize it sometime later when their trust would be broken similarly … they can win the battles again … we need to heal ourselves and go on … until we reach our final destination .. :) .. cause thats what we want…

Signing out with the hope of staying alive … and trying to start loving my existence again …

Regards,

SW

The Change

Why does everything seems so weird? Why am I being so unnatural? What is going wrong? Why are there butterflies in my stomach? Is everthing meant to be how it is? What is happening to me? What am I trying to hide? What am I trying to fabricate myself? Was I the same since ever? Where am I going? I dont know! I’m just confused… I can’t say what is happening to me!

Maybe I am transforming into someone I used to be! But I don’t want to be someone who suffered so much… Maybe I fabricate my actual image of what I am… or maybe have I transformed into a completely different being! I was never so dark! I was never so dull! I was never aggressive! I was never hot tempered! I was never anyone who, ever wanted to be bad! I just dont know what has happened to me. Maybe the bad things that I faced, led me to become completely different, not because I wanted to be that way. But because, I was scared of of getting hurt! I was scared whenever I thought of becoming neglected! And then maybe I decided to neglect everyone my ownself…

I dont know whether it was a right decision. But what could I have done. Its just the weird thinking process that I have. I hold it responsible for whoever I am. I am not someone who is not thankful to God of whatever he possesses. I am very thankful, and would always be. And I am not hungry or greedy for somethings that people usually run for. I just want to achieve something that no common man has. And I know I can do it! But not until I reshape myself completely. I often see things going strangely for me, but I have to be someone who accepts them as they are. I accept my mistakes as well. I know at times things mainly go wrong coz of a person’s own mishaps.

It was today, the 27th day of January of the year 2006, that someone unintentionally made me realize where I stand. I am extremely thankful to that person for showing me my image in the mirror and breaking it for me. That person might not even know what that has done to me. But from today … I start … the process of Re-transforming myself, my image, my thinking, and … my fate!

Signing out …
the old … Sarosh Waiz!